The creation of an object that can be passed to another and held by them, left somewhere to be found or lost forever, is, nevertheless, an offering from their interior of its creator to the world outside.
The schizoid artist, and the schizoid mind lends itself to artistic pursuits as it favours attention towards what lies within, either seeks to maintain possession of or disparages the completed work, so as to minimise the trauma of what was once inner and a part of being outer and apart from.
For the work that’s made it’s not so bad but for the child born of the schizoid mother who turns from indifferently from them after birth or who cannot let go of them sufficiently for their progeny to fulfil their potential, it is mostly a disaster.
She occupied herself with a novel as the cord was cut. He said they called for him quickly when they saw her reaction and credit where credit’s due, he came running.
I'd known Ruby a while, knew she was genetically male, that with time and effort she'd achieved the convincing appearance of a woman.
Today, as I was sitting in the Arts House café, having chosen to work there rather than Kino, which was crowded, and anyway I don’t like the seating so much, it’s a bit rigid and affords becoming trapped in a corner having to ask strangers, ‘Excuse me,’ to get out, Ruby sat down opposite.
I was reading Fairbairn and she said, ‘I read a paper of his about schizoid personalities,’ and we got talking.
The schizoid personality employs splitting as a defence which means cutting is involved and that’s how we got to…
…Ruby said she’d wondered about her defences against her gender confusion and had been thinking at one time of resorting to reassignment to solve her dilemma. But, instead of consigning herself to less than she was, she decided to keep her penis, and extend, as she put it, her masculine and feminine parts into a greater whole.
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